wekness > strength

^"11 I tell you the truth: Among those born of women there has not risen anyone greater than John the Baptist; yet he who is least in the kingdom of heaven is greater than he." - Matthew 11

poor john. after all his work he never got to experience the kingdom of christ on earth! but then again he is with jesus in heaven now so its all good.

ive had pride issues lord, help remind me that the last are first, the weakest are the strongest, and the smallest are the greatest. help me remain humble.
for i am insufficient, and your power works best in my weakness

nameless

" ¹³ Moses said to God, "Suppose I go to the Israelites and say to them, 'The God of your fathers has sent me to you,' and they ask me, 'What is his name?' Then what shall I tell them?"

¹⁴ God said to Moses, "I am who I am . This is what you are to say to the Israelites: 'I AM has sent me to you.' "

¹⁵ God also said to Moses, "Say to the Israelites, 'The LORD, the God of your fathers—the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob—has sent me to you.' This is my name forever, the name by which I am to be remembered from generation to generation." - Exodus 3

god, by nature, cannot be bound to anything we can understand as humans. no adjectives, no labels, no names. even the name "God" is just a metonymy for the actual being. yet he gives us this metonymy to reference all that he is: I AM. I AM WHO I AM.

god, you are so huge. you are above anything we try to put to you. you only are what you are. we cant ever understand you, yet you give us glimpses of what you are. we cant even understand your name, yet you give us a name for you which we can grasp.

inner beauty

" ¹⁵ But the LORD said to him, "Not so; if anyone kills Cain, he will suffer vengeance seven times over." Then the LORD put a mark on Cain so that no one who found him would kill him. ¹⁶ So Cain went out from the LORD's presence and lived in the land of Nod, east of Eden. ¹⁷ Cain lay with his wife, and she became pregnant and gave birth to Enoch. Cain was then building a city, and he named it after his son Enoch." - Genesis 4

my understanding has always been that adam and eve were the only humans created and living in gods presence. then after their exile, they wandered together and had children. but they were still the only humans. so when cain was banished and wandered away, how did he go to this "land of Nod?" who else was out there? were there tons of cities like these, and tons of other people? an idea that came up tonight in convo was that adam and eve throughout the bible are symbolic for a group of people or the early mankind, not specifically two individuals. this is an interesting take, something i hadnt thought about before.

i love the symbolism in the bible. the way it is so open to interpretation. the layers of metaphors. crazy onion layers.
the bible is beautiful as a literal work, yet part of faith is taking the text as your own, what it means to you, what god is saying to you.

i pray i learn to see between the lines more often in our relationship, lord. show me what you want me to see.
everything doesnt have to be straightford, or black and white. you made many shades of grey.

beauty in the breakdown

" ² Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³ because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. ⁴ Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1

welcoming hardship. rejoicing in struggle. delighting in weakness, insufficiency, and failure. such odd concepts. help me trust their ability to grow my strength and fait, and help me trust that you will carry me when i cant take any more. your power works best in my weakness.

for when i am weak, then i am strong.


noted: perseverance also helps during starfox 64 hard mode

fugitive

“[God Disciplines His Sons] Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.” - Hebrews 12:1


tonight we ran. so we left behind all luxuries, burdens, distractions. it was messy, and we had some close calls. temptation to cheat, to hide and rest, to give up was thick in the air we breathed as we ran. but we followed the plotted course with perseverance.
and we finished the race

thoughtless deviation

' ¹⁹ After I strayed,
I repented;
after I came to understand,
I beat my breast.
I was ashamed and humiliated
because I bore the disgrace of my youth.' - Jeremiah 31


what the eff, josh? you are disgusting. you carry your disgrace with offhanded pride like some sort of trophy. you wear your insolence like a new shirt, your reckless arrogance like a freshly inked tattoo. stop. turn and look at the fruits of your self-seeking efforts: destruction and waste. repent.

repent, for the kingdom of heaven is near.


nearer than you think

haste the day

"I will hasten and not delay to obey your commands." - Psalm 119:60


often god speaks and i think 'yeah ill do it later' or 'i know i should but not right now.' i hate the excuses i make. i hate the hindrances i put on myself. why not now? why not here, as i am, with what i have?

restore my sense of urgency god, im getting too lazy and too comfortable.

a beautiful collision

"Jesus wept." - John 11:35

epic smash-up: spiritual +physical

contact, impact between god and i- this is what the kingdom of God on Earth is.
a mangled, glorious wreck of humanity and divinity. no end to where you begin and where i end.

here it comes

Substance

^"27Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." - John 14


the world's not such a bad place. it gives what it can. it is physical so it gives physically to my physical being. food, possessions, relationships, hobbies, knowledge, skills- i need them all physically, for the time being. yet they really don't matter in the long run because my physical being will pass. Jesus gives to my spirit. he has sent the holy spirit to take care of my spiritual being, the lasting part of me. he says he leaves peace with me, which makes peace of the spiritual essence, not physical. so peace isn't something my physical body can feel, like hunger or thirst, its something my spirit feels. love, joy, patience, grace, understanding- these all fall in the same category. it sounds basic but there's more to it than i can understand.
the earth gives, yet it cannot provide substance like my savior can.
this intertwining of spirit and body is an interesting thing.

this sounds so obvious, yet you know my heart and mind. let me look to you for satisfaction, not to the empty things here

love is a force that i cannot fight

" ⁹Anyone who claims to be in the light but hates his brother is still in the darkness. ¹⁰Whoever loves his brother lives in the light, and there is nothing in him to make him stumble." - 1 John 2


'nuff said, brah.

open my eyes to your love for me, let it take over me and overflow into others

an existential crisis?

^{lately i've been wasting my minutes, hours, days, just being counter-productive. im stuck in the funk of those inquisitive "what's the meaning of life?" moods so i thought i would turn to ecclesiastes.}


Ecclesiastes 1
^"13 I devoted myself to study and to explore by wisdom all that is done under heaven. What a heavy burden God has laid on men!"


Ecclesiastes 2
^"11 Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done
and what I had toiled to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun....

¹⁵ Then I thought in my heart,
"The fate of the fool will overtake me also.
What then do I gain by being wise?"
I said in my heart,
"This too is meaningless...."

¹⁷ So I hated life, because the work that is done under the sun was grievous to me. All of it is meaningless, a chasing after the wind....

²⁴ A man can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in his work. This too, I see, is from the hand of God, ²⁵ for without him, who can eat or find enjoyment?"


Ecclesiastes 3
^"19 Man's fate is like that of the animals; the same fate awaits them both: As one dies, so dies the other. All have the same breath; man has no advantage over the animal. Everything is meaningless."


Ecclesiastes 5
^"7 Much dreaming and many words are meaningless. Therefore stand in awe of God."


Ecclesiastes 6
^"10 Whatever exists has already been named,
and what man is has been known;
no man can contend
with one who is stronger than he.

¹¹ The more the words,
the less the meaning,
and how does that profit anyone?

¹² For who knows what is good for a man in life, during the few and meaningless days he passes through like a shadow? Who can tell him what will happen under the sun after he is gone?"

the human race is just one of the hundreds of millions of species that inhabit this planet. like all living things we are bound to the earth, we require its water, oxygen, food. we are born, we live, we die, and the earth spins on. what is the impact of my life upon this planet while i exist? im so small, so ordinary. what can i do that hasnt already been done? who will remember me after i pass? if the "best thing for man to do" is just enjoy his life here and realize that is from the hand of god, then what really matters at all? ive always thought material possessions and accomplishments to be meaningless, but i never looked at knowledge or wisdom as equally meaningless. im considering foregoing college to go do something with my life, be a missionary or make music or something to help those who cant help themselves. cause who knows how long ill be here, why not make an impact today? and if wisdom, money, status, possession, accolades are all meaningless, why not just start living today entirely to give love away? i know i have the desire and the potential to do it, but i dont know what gods plan for me is.

many words are meaningless. so i will stand speechless in awe of you, trusting you to sustain me and give me worth. reveal to me your purpose

in need of a teethbrushing

^"6 If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. ⁷ But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin." - 1 John 1

ive been walking in some darkness and its only hurting others and myself. i dont know why i waste time with it, its only a hindrance from what i claim to be truth and life. im feeling hypocritical and mucky. my teeth are feeling icky too, so while i go to clean them and protect them from cavities, i pray to my savior to clean my mucky heart and protect it from future sin

please give me direction, lord

i can't

²³"Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. ²⁴As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand talents was brought to him. ²⁵Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt.

²⁶"The servant fell on his knees before him. 'Be patient with me,' he begged, 'and I will pay back everything.' ²⁷The servant's master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go.

²⁸"But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred denarii. He grabbed him and began to choke him. 'Pay back what you owe me!' he demanded.

²⁹"His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, 'Be patient with me, and I will pay you back.'

³⁰"But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. ³¹When the other servants saw what had happened, they were greatly distressed and went and told their master everything that had happened.

³²"Then the master called the servant in. 'You wicked servant,' he said, 'I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. ³³Shouldn't you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?' ³⁴In anger his master turned him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.

³⁵"This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother from your heart." - Matthew 18

i wish i could muster up enough kindness to forgive right now and have stuff be normal, but i want to forgive from my heart, and not just with words. and my heart isnt quite ready yet. i want to grant pardon now, i really do. but i will probably wallow in self-pity and bitterness for a bit longer before that happens. after being vulnerable and giving love every way i knew how, i was completely screwed over and although that's no excuse to forgo forgiveness, it makes it pretty tough. and its worse when i know i should forgive asap- the bible says to, god says to, i can feel uneasiness in my heart cause of it, and i really do want to. but sorry, its still a work in progress. and while its not necessary, a sincere apology from the heart, not just with words but with substance, in return would help a lot when i am ready. i need to work on forgiving with or without any apologies though, because this is really between me and god

take it easy beezy

" ^26-28 Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good." - Romans 8

oh, the message, how i adore thee.
so this part of romans is about recognizing you are insufficient and that god doesnt hold your weakness against you, but rather helps you through it. its scary to think that someone knows me better than i do. knows all my desires and secrets and insecurities and fears and grudges, all the wonderful crap that makes up me. even stuff that i dont know is in me. but its comforting too, because the person who knows me best is also in complete control of my life and he's a pretty good guy, so thats a plus!
whenever i get impatient or pissed off at god, whenever i ignore him, and whenever i give up faith in him is when he comes closest to me and works the most inside of me, helping me in my weakness. its weird that i can be so terrible to someone and yet they react with more love. im glad i dont understand you, god

where is my heart?

⁷ I will praise the LORD, who counsels me;
even at night my heart instructs me. - Psalm 16


god is never weary, never tired. so when he comes into my heart of hearts, he becomes this ever-present counselor. he is the guard on the watchtower that never sleeps, even though i sleep. and he continues to talk and work inside of me while i rest, whether that rest be physical, mental, or spiritual



¹⁰ I seek you with all my heart;
do not let me stray from your commands.

¹¹ I have hidden your word in my heart
that I might not sin against you.

¹² Praise be to you, O LORD;
teach me your decrees. - Psalm 119

where is my heart? what does it really desire? what does it rejoice in? am i guarding it and seeking what is best for it with my actions? are gods words not only at the tip of my tongue and in the back of my mind, but in my heart?
i feel like i need jesus to be my doctor and do a checkup on my heart

i am but one small instrument

http://www.tangle.com/view_video.php?viewkey=a2b61a7c709871cfc883

magical

continuing the shepherd motif...

¹"I tell you the truth, the man who does not enter the sheep pen by the gate, but climbs in by some other way, is a thief and a robber. ²The man who enters by the gate is the shepherd of his sheep. ³The watchman opens the gate for him, and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. ⁴When he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because they know his voice. ⁵But they will never follow a stranger; in fact, they will run away from him because they do not recognize a stranger's voice." ⁶Jesus used this figure of speech, but they did not understand what he was telling them.

...

¹¹"I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep." - John 10


anddddd

^"9 Save your people and bless your inheritance;
be their shepherd and carry them forever." - Psalm 28


on their own, all sheep are equally lost in the pastures. even if there is a shepherd to guide, the only sheep that make it home are those that actively follow the shepherd. it is not enough to merely intend to follow him, or to speak about following without any action to back up those words. sometimes i think the church is like a group of sheep huddled up, talking and talking and talking about how to follow the shepherd, when if they would just turn around they would see he is right there with them already, beckoning to them to follow. to just come and follow.
anyways, when jesus speaks he mentions that a watchman opens the gate for the shepherd to come in, and then the shepherd calls to his sheep. im imaging that the church should be the watchmen, looking for opportunities to open the gate and make it easier for the shepherd to enter into the lives of the lost sheep.

god, let me be both a meek sheep following you in humble silence and gratefulness, and a watchman constantly seeking to open doors for you into the lives of others

Psalm 23:1

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.


The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.


The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.


The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.


The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.





The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

All to Christ I Owe

man i wish i had played more hymns while on worship at day7. maybe i can sneak them in through daniel or something. hmm. anywho, hymns freaking rock, heres a latest fave of mine.

I hear the Savior say,
“Thy strength indeed is small;
Child of weakness, watch and pray,
Find in Me thine all in all.”

Refrain:
Jesus paid it all,
All to Him I owe;
Sin had left a crimson stain,
He washed it white as snow.

For nothing good have I
Whereby Thy grace to claim;
I’ll wash my garments white
In the blood of Calv’ry’s Lamb.

Refrain

And now complete in Him,
My robe, His righteousness,
Close sheltered ’neath His side,
I am divinely blest.

Refrain

Lord, now indeed I find
Thy pow’r, and Thine alone,
Can change the leper’s spots
And melt the heart of stone.

Refrain

When from my dying bed
My ransomed soul shall rise,
“Jesus died my soul to save,”
Shall rend the vaulted skies.

Refrain

And when before the throne
I stand in Him complete,
I’ll lay my trophies down,
All down at Jesus’ feet.

Refrain


wow. beauty.

o praise the one who paid my debt and raised this life up from the dead

convicted criminal with a heart of gold

" ³⁸There was a written notice above him, which read: THIS IS THE KING OF THE JEWS.

³⁹One of the criminals who hung there hurled insults at him: "Aren't you the Christ? Save yourself and us!"

⁴⁰But the other criminal rebuked him. "Don't you fear God," he said, "since you are under the same sentence? ⁴¹We are punished justly, for we are getting what our deeds deserve. But this man has done nothing wrong."

⁴²Then he said, "Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom."

⁴³Jesus answered him, "I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise." - Luke 23

this story is so awesome. i wish i had the faith of that criminal, he's a bamf. what a lucky guy to have had that chance to talk to jesus, and to now be in heaven with him. they shared what would surely be the last conversation for all three of them that were crucified. i wonder if ill meet that guy in heaven some day. i wonder if jesus has rewarded him for his faith. i wonder what it was like to hear from jesus' mouth that he would be surely see him in heaven.

jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.
or rather, when you come with your kingly power

and today was a day just like any other

^"12 Take care, brothers, lest there be in any of you an evil, unbelieving heart, leading you to fall away from the living God. ¹³ But exhort one another every day, as long as it is called "today," that none of you may be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin. ¹⁴ For we have come to share in Christ, if indeed we hold our original confidence firm to the end." - Hebrews 3

god im so happy to be alive today. life is such a crazy concept and a blessing we overlook. i dont want to waste a single day i am given, because who the heck knows how many i have? today could be the last. or tomorrow. i want to live my life in a way that i would be completely okay leaving this world on any given day if it was my last day to live. verse 13 instructs to encourage believers and spread gods love alllll day, errrry day. and thats a challenge. followed immeadiately by another challenge: to firmly hold confidence in god from start to end. and i dont want to fall away from the living god, i want to share in christ, so ill start working on these challenges

thank you again for another beautiful day god. dont let me become numb to the blessing of life, every day is special

Tehilim #138

psalms - derived from the greek: Psalmoi, meaning "songs sung to a harp"
(Hebrew: Tehilim‎, תהילים, or "praises")

Psalm 138

Of David.

¹ I will praise you, O LORD, with all my heart;
before the "gods" I will sing your praise.

² I will bow down toward your holy temple
and will praise your name
for your love and your faithfulness,
for you have exalted above all things
your name and your word.

³ When I called, you answered me;
you made me bold and stouthearted.

⁴ May all the kings of the earth praise you, O LORD,
when they hear the words of your mouth.

⁵ May they sing of the ways of the LORD,
for the glory of the LORD is great.

⁶ Though the LORD is on high, he looks upon the lowly,
but the proud he knows from afar.

⁷ Though I walk in the midst of trouble,
you preserve my life;
you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes,
with your right hand you save me.

⁸ The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me;
your love, O LORD, endures forever—
do not abandon the works of your hands.

v1: i enjoy how david mocks all false deities by calling them other "gods" and singing the praises of the lord to "them." v3: the word stouthearted tickles my fancy. v5: the very purpose of worship. v6: i wish to make myself lowly and humble so the lord will look upon me and draw closer. v7+8: an encouraging reminder as i get ready to leave home for a completely new place.

the lord will fulfill his purpose for me, he will not abandon the works of his hands

so this is the new year,

<sup>but i dont feel any different

"9</sup> I will sing a new song to you, O God;
on the ten-stringed lyre I will make music to you" - Psalm 144

got lucky with my schedule today. ucsb is gonna be freaking amazing! i cant wait for these opportunities and freedoms and to see god in new people and new ways. our relationship is gonna be different lord, im anticipating growth and change.
god you bless me too, too much

out of the frying pan

“30 As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the LORD is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in him.” - Psalm 18

so santa barbara. wow. this is a different life. not better or worse, but different. i love the people ive met and how unique they are. the culture, stories, ideals, and almost every part of daily living here are completely different than anything ive experienced before. this isnt almaden, this isnt san jose, this isnt san francisco or anything i know. but i love it. and it is good. i just want to truly take refuge in god here, meeting people, blessing them, and discovering all that god has to offer for me here.
your love is extravagent.

to love without ceasing

^"13 No one has greater love than this, that one should lay down his life for his friends." - John 15

no one could ever love like christ. he sacrificed his life not just for friends, but even for the people who killed him. he died for people who hated him. he died for people who still to this day deny him and hate him. he didnt die that people might be thankful for him, he just did it to show love and humility.
everyone here on earth takes everything for granted. family, friends, nourishment, entertainment, transportation, shelter, technology, nature, all these things become part of our daily lives and we arent even grateful for them, we just look at them as normal. who knows if we will even be alive tomorrow, in the next hour, the next minute, even the next second? nothing is promised to you on earth, nothing is certain except that one day you will die. thats the only thing we know for sure. i know im guilty of this too, but some people just cant appreciate all that they have. this life is such a gift, we are so ridiculously blessed more than we could ever need. god does amazing things for us and we dont notice.
im not perfect but i really try to live with other peoples inerests in mind instead of my own. i try to be generous and make sacrifices for people, but a lot of times i end up getting used. its really annoying when people dont appreciate or notice things. but im learning about serving and humility. sometimes you dont get rewarded or thanked for your work, you just do it to serve people and thats all that matters. your reward isnt given here on earth, but in heaven.

independence day!

^"8 He has showed you, O man, what is good.
And what does the LORD require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God." - Micah 6

heh, imagine if everyone lived like this in response to the goodness god shows them. the kingdom of god would be here in full force.
you have indeed shown me what is good. teach me to walk humbly with you, to act with justice and love with mercy.

fail.

" 3 Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?" - Matthew 7

well crap.
hey god, im sorry. i still suck. im disappointing myself (not to mention you) and i need guidance. and i know you are all around me, its not like you arent speaking or guiding already. just help me be more receptive to you

im trying, i promise.

jubilate deo

¹ Praise the LORD.
Praise the LORD from the heavens,
praise him in the heights above.

² Praise him, all his angels,
praise him, all his heavenly hosts.

³ Praise him, sun and moon,
praise him, all you shining stars.

⁴ Praise him, you highest heavens
and you waters above the skies.

⁵ Let them praise the name of the LORD,
for he commanded and they were created.

⁶ He set them in place for ever and ever;
he gave a decree that will never pass away.

⁷ Praise the LORD from the earth,
you great sea creatures and all ocean depths,

⁸ lightning and hail, snow and clouds,
stormy winds that do his bidding,

⁹ you mountains and all hills,
fruit trees and all cedars,

¹⁰ wild animals and all cattle,
small creatures and flying birds,

¹¹ kings of the earth and all nations,
you princes and all rulers on earth,

¹² young men and maidens,
old men and children.

¹³ Let them praise the name of the LORD,
for his name alone is exalted;
his splendor is above the earth and the heavens.

¹⁴ He has raised up for his people a horn,
the praise of all his saints,
of Israel, the people close to his heart.
Praise the LORD.

-Psalm 148

such beautiful imagery here. ugh, i love it.
okay, so the first half is a call to the heavens and its inhabitants to praise god and rejoice in their creation and their decrees given by god. and the second half is a call to all the earth and its inhabitants to praise god and rejoice in their creation and their decrees given by god. basically, under god all things are equal and have one purpose- to rejoice in Him and give Him glory. let us all worship him together!
man i wish i could write as wonderfully as this psalmist.
PLUS this psalm is the basis for All Creatures of Our God and King. so its just freakin awesome.

Let all things their Creator bless,
and worship him in humbleness,
O praise him, Alleluia!
Praise, praise the Father, praise the Son,
and praise the Spirit, Three in One

O praise him, O praise him,
Alleluia, alleluia, alleluia!

let everything everywhere speak of the wonders of your hand, Lord, sing of your everlasting glory, and shout praise to your holy, holy name.

a spark

a dear friend, a warm summer night, a life changing conversation. (for reals)
god you know it all, i dont have to write out what happened or explain anything.
help me continue along this new path, let these new habits develop into a lifestyle, change me down to my very core. and most importantly, help me share your love with others through it all.

^"22Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. ²³Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. ²⁴Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! ²⁵Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? ²⁶Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

²⁷"Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ²⁸If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! ²⁹And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. ³⁰For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. ³¹But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.

³²"Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. ³³Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will not be exhausted, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. ³⁴For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." - Luke 12

i love this passage. ive analyzed it, soaped on it, taught on it before. but after last night this passage has new meaning. and i want to truly apply it to my day to day living. verses 32-34 are now my dictum, my precept, theres absolutely no reason for me to NOT be living like that today.
im living life differently. starting now.

lord you know my heart. im starting to really believe that you are everything i need. screw everything else. let my treasure be in your kingdom
for if my treasure is in you, there my heart will also be.