empty distractions

^"15Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth. ¹⁶Avoid godless chatter, because those who indulge in it will become more and more ungodly." - 2 Timothy 2


today ive been avoiding you. or any intimate time with you or your word. and im sorry about that. i feel like im supposed to have a good grip on "the word of truth," and that i do most times, but my slip ups are coming more often. im holding more empty convo, wasting more time, and coming back to god ashamed more frequently.
i want you in my day-to-day everything, be in my spare time, be in my inside jokes with close friends, be in my workouts and practicing, be in my texting, be in my resting, be in my decisions and my coming and going. be it all, and then some