im in some serious pain today. i cant even put my shoes on, walking is aggravating, focusing on anything is extremely difficult. i have so much to do and not enough time or strength. i just want to curl up in my bed and watch movies all day. ever since i arrived here i have been busy, busy, busy. all my friends have time to lounge and hang out and are so free to do all these activites but my schedule is killing me. i can't do what i want to do. i am worn the frick out. i want a break, but i know i'm not getting one anytime soon. i don't care that i'm being whiny and self-centered and making a huge deal of everything, i think i deserve to do that for once. this is my breakdown.
and yet...
i open my bible for one split second and stare face to face with rebuke.
1 "Man born of woman
is of few days and full of trouble.
2 He springs up like a flower and withers away;
like a fleeting shadow, he does not endure.
...
22 He feels but the pain of his own body
and mourns only for himself."
- Job 14
i don't even want to pray this right now, but god, help me overlook my pain today and try to love on others
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